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Shutting Down

First, I’m sorry about the length of time between posts. We lost my husband’s father and things have been really chaotic dealing with family issues, memorial planning, etc. Things will be returning to normal on Monday.

Second, I want to talk more about my nipple dilemma. There will be extra money soon and I’ll have the capability of scheduling the nipple reconstruction. I’m scared. I’m not mind-numbingly terrified the way I was when I scheduled my breast reconstruction. But I’m still frightened of something going wrong.

The main *something* is, of course, my old nemesis, necrosis. I love my Twins. They have their little flaws but what breasts don’t? So why fix what isn’t broken? Because somewhere in the back of my mind, I’m still not complete.

Yet, whenever I think about actually doing it, I start to shut down. I feel like curling in on myself. I don’t know if I’m really ready. I want to just be done with it but I’m scared.

Has anyone out there had nipple reconstruction? Would you share your story, good or bad, with me please?

 

Malpractice Insurance

I have spoken previously about the regulations surrounding malpractice insurance in Florida. According to what I have experienced, a plastic surgeon is only required to carry $100,000 in malpractice insurance. If you have to end up suing your plastic surgeon, there are a few factors to consider.

First, the legal fees have to come out of that $100,000. It can take a very long time for your lawyer to research your case. Surgical records have to be pulled and analyzed along with any other pertinent health records.

Second: It can be extraordinarily difficult to prove malpractice took place so there is a decent chance you may not win.

Third: If you DO win, there probably won’t be enough left to cover reconstruction surgery. My reconstruction (just the mounds) and hospital fees cost about $30,000. My nipple reconstruction and revision surgery will be another $10,000 in round numbers.

With the current economy, surgical financing in any decent amount is nearly impossible to come by. So there is every chance that you will have to pay for your reconstruction out of pocket if it is not related to breast cancer.

This regulation needs to be reconsidered. $100,000 is simply not enough money to pay the lawyer AND the doctor.

 

Research Continues

I never received a call back from either the American Society of Plastic Surgeons OR the Board of Plastic Surgeons. I’ve left two messages and I guess they just can’t be bothered. So I’m going to the public sector to do my research since these people cannot be bothered to speak to a small time blogger like myself.

I have found a few places that I will mention soon once I have established contact. I need to verify things like time frame of available statistics, types of complications, if fault was established for either implant failure or failed surgical technique.

As always dear reader i will be keeping you up to date.

I may have found a niche for BoobCast The Podcast and that might be going forward later this year after all.

Implant safety is still a pretty major issue, it seems.

I also remembered something I don’t know if I ever mentioned when I was going through all this hell. For the few weeks I had the implants in, I had a rash across my chest and cleavage. The doctor chalked it up to an allergic reaction to the antibiotics I had taken. The odd thing is, after the implants were out, the rash went away in a couple days. I had saline implants but the outer shell was textured silicone.

I know that correlation does not equal causation though. So just because I had a rash, that could have been caused by something else in my environment. I just don’t know.

With some of the symptoms I’ve read from women who have had silicone implants, I do have to wonder if I wasn’t having a problem with the implants along with everything else that happened.

 

Boobies – A Success Story

I follow a great lady on Twitter who goes by the nickname of FortunateC00kie. Yesterday she put up her own blog post about her experience with cosmetic surgery. I was personally relieved to see that her own breast augmentation went well with no complications.

She IS, however, dealing with one of the major complaint that many women have after breast augmentation. Size. For lots of women, the new Twins are either too big or too small. C00kie falls into the “too small” category.

Read her story here: http://fortunatecookie74.blogspot.com/

 

Boobjob Versus Breast Augmentation

Dr. Grant Stevens speaks out on the subject:

An excellent breast augmentation can look natural, feel real and have a natural shape. Plastic surgeon Dr. Grant Stevens, Los Angeles, makes a distinction between successful breast surgery and the obvious “boob job” where it’s easy to tell a woman has had surgery

“Part of an excellent breast augmentations the fact that the breasts look as if they could actually occur in nature,” he explains. “There should be a question in the viewer’s mind as to whether or not these are real or are surgically created.”

A good breast augmentation has a natural fullness and gentle sloping off the chest wall. There should be natural cleavage, without webbing between the breasts and a certain amount of perkiness. Dr. Stevens lists five basic considerations that make for a desirable breast augmentation:

*which incision to use

*what type of implant to use

*placement of the implant

*texture of the implant

*size of the implant

Before having surgery, you should go over photographic examples of the breasts you want with your surgeon so that you both have a clear, visual understanding of the desired result. “My job is to make the breasts look like the photographs,” says Dr. Stevens.

There are four choices regarding where to make the incision for a breast implant: underneath the arm, around the nipple, or in the inframammary fold (where the breast meets the chest wall). The fourth is the umbilical incision, but is not as preferred as the others. There are advantages to each incision.

“l allow the patient to direct me as to which incision she wishes to have,” says Dr. Stevens. “We know that each incision has a certain amount of scarring, but our goal is to have the scar so minimal it’s inconspicuous.”

Sometimes there are ethnic factors(in terms of skin type and color) that might encourage one incision over another. Dr. Stevens refuses to recommend any incision per se but notes that: “Of all the breast augmentations I have performed on nurses, physicians or even my own employees, none have ever asked me to do either the inframammary fold or armpit approach. I find it highly significant that women who have been surrounded by the plastic surgery industry and have seen the most results, have never asked for an incision other than beneath the areola.”

The type of implant used has certain limitations in terms of availability. Currently, there is a moratorium on silicone implants; the silicone gel implant has been limited to women who fit into specific inclusion criteria. “lf there were no moratorium I would be putting in far more silicone gel implants than saline implants,” says Dr. Stevens. “The silicone gel implants, in general, feel more like a breast and look more like a breast. However, we can certainly adjust the saline implants and in most cases are able to give the woman a natural-looking breast.”

The next question is where to put the implant. It can be placed either on top of or behind the muscle. “l place implants behind the muscle so the implants are partially covered,” says Dr. Stevens. “The muscle allows a nice smooth take-off from the chest wall. lf put directly on top of the muscle they can look like a half-grapefruit or rounded balloon the chest.”

The fourth criterion in an excellent breast augmentation is the choice of specific implant. Should it be smooth, textured, low profile, high profile or anatomic? It’s important that each implant is individualized to achieve the size and shape the patient desires. According to Dr. Stevens, that individualization should dictate the decision.

“It’s my feeling that if the surgeon is wedded to only one type of implant then all the breast augmentations will look the same. This is not cookie-cutter surgery. Cookie-cutter breast augmentations are, in my opinion, ‘boob jobs’.”

Finally, although there is a size range from which to choose, the breast implant must be appropriately sized for the individual.

“When a breast augmentation is extremely large compared to the woman’s body, in my mind, it falls into the category of a ‘boob job’ because any one can certainly spot it,” notes Dr. Stevens. “If you take a little woman and you give her size double-D breasts, most people would agree that this is inappropriate. For a larger woman however, that size may be reasonable.Mostlf my patients want to be In the C to D range but certainly some women want to be a large D and some women only desire to be B-cup size.”

“Boob jobs” are often hard, round balls on a woman’s chest. Beautiful breast augmentations have a natural shape and size. Allowing natural movement, the implanted breasts slope gently off the chest and feel soft to the touch

 

Why I Hid My Surgical Complications

When I wrote this post: breast-necrosis-photos I mentioned that, as the necrosis was developing, I kept the extent of the damage from my husband and my family as long as I could. There are a few reasons. They may not make much sense but if you’re going through this, I think perhaps you can relate.

1) “I don’t want to be a burden”. No one wants to cause problems for their family. As women we generally put everyone else’s needs before our own. When we’re sick or hurt we usually keep it to ourselves until it’s really bad. Even then, most of us hesitate to ask for what we need for fear of being a burden.

2) “It’s my fault. I’ll handle it myself.”. My big guilt trip for the longest time was that somehow, this was all my fault. Because of that, I was going to deal with it myself. I’m a big advocate for personal responsibility. Since I felt responsible for what happened, I was bound and determined to handle it all on my own.

3) Fear. When I was in my late teens my mother went through something similar to what I have gone through. My father had an extremely hard time dealing with it and it drove them apart. I was stark raving terrified that if my husband saw what was happening to my breasts, he would leave me.

4) Sheltering. My husband led a pretty sheltered life before all of this. I wanted to protect him and shelter him from the trauma so that only one of us really had to deal with it. I put up an extremely good facade too. 99.9% of the time he had NO idea that I was in a mental and emotional Hell.

For those reasons, I kept the necrosis hidden. He was not allowed in the bathroom during my bandage changes. He was also not permitted to see me when I showered. I gave him updates after my check ups with the plastic surgeon but he was never permitted to see. Not until much later when I had absolutely no choice in the matter.

Some people call this bravery. Since it was fear based, I still think of it as self preservation.

 

Breast Necrosis Photos

Below you will find photos of what breast necrosis looks like. These are EXTREMELY graphic photos. This post is for MATURE VIEWERS ONLY!!

I am putting these photos up, not for shock value or to evoke pity. I am posting these images of breast necrosis so that when another woman has this happen to her, she will be able to look at the photos and evaluate for herself if she just has really bad bruising or if her tissue is necrotic.

I have said SO many times before that when I was going though this I did not have ANY pictorial references. I didn’t know what to look for. Now YOU, dear reader, do. If you are unfortunate enough to be reading this, searching for answers, please contact me at boobcast (at) gmail.com if you have ANY questions at all.

During the period you see below, I felt so very alone because I couldn’t find anything to compare myself to. I was also sheltering my husband and my family from what was going on. So I WAS alone. YOU don’t have to be.

The first photo (below) is approximately a week after surgery. Most of what you see is bruising. However the black spots are necrotic tissue.

The next photo you will see is closer shot. In this second photo you can see the difference between the bruising and the necrotic tissue. Here you can see the difference in the texture of the skin where it has really started to die.

This next photo is blurry and I’ll ask your forgiveness for that. You can see where a hole has opened up in the dead tissue.

There is a process called debriding where dead tissue is cut away. It doesn’t hurt because the tissue has died and has no nerves. It’s just rather horrifying knowing that part of your body has died and is being cut away. They don’t put you to sleep or anything. They just cut it off with surgical scissors. The completely black area used to be my nipple. That is was totally necrotic tissue looks like.

The yellow tissue is, as you may have already suspected, breast fat.

A photo of my other necrotic nipple and areolae:

Finally, a VERY graphic closeup of one of my breasts after the debriding:

 

Boobjob Verus Breast Augmentation

Dr. Grant Stevens speaks out on the subject:

n excellent breast augmentation can look natural, feel real and have a natural shape. Plastic surgeon Dr. Grant Stevens, Los Angeles, makes a distinction between successful breast surgery and the obvious “boob job” where it’s easy to tell a woman has had surgery

“Part of an excellent breast augmentations the fact that the breasts look as if they could actually occur in nature,” he explains. “There should be a question in the viewer’s mind as to whether or not these are real or are surgically created.”

A good breast augmentation has a natural fullness and gentle sloping off the chest wall. There should be natural cleavage, without webbing between the breasts and a certain amount of perkiness. Dr. Stevens lists five basic considerations that make for a desirable breast augmentation:

  • which incision to use
  • what type of implant to use
  • placement of the implant
  • texture of the implant
  • size of the implant

Before having surgery, you should go over photographic examples of the breasts you want with your surgeon so that you both have a clear, visual understanding of the desired result. “My job is to make the breasts look like the photographs,” says Dr. Stevens.

There are four choices regarding where to make the incision for a breast implant: underneath the arm, around the nipple, or in the inframammary fold (where the breast meets the chest wall). The fourth is the umbilical incision, but is not as preferred as the others. There are advantages to each incision.

“l allow the patient to direct me as to which incision she wishes to have,” says Dr. Stevens. “We know that each incision has a certain amount of scarring, but our goal is to have the scar so minimal it’s inconspicuous.”

Sometimes there are ethnic factors(in terms of skin type and color) that might encourage one incision over another. Dr. Stevens refuses to recommend any incision per se but notes that: “Of all the breast augmentations I have performed on nurses, physicians or even my own employees, none have ever asked me to do either the inframammary fold or armpit approach. I find it highly significant that women who have been surrounded by the plastic surgery industry and have seen the most results, have never asked for an incision other than beneath the areola.”

The type of implant used has certain limitations in terms of availability. Currently, there is a moratorium on silicone implants; the silicone gel implant has been limited to women who fit into specific inclusion criteria. “lf there were no moratorium I would be putting in far more silicone gel implants than saline implants,” says Dr. Stevens. “The silicone gel implants, in general, feel more like a breast and look more like a breast. However, we can certainly adjust the saline implants and in most cases are able to give the woman a natural-looking breast.”

The next question is where to put the implant. It can be placed either on top of or behind the muscle. “l place implants behind the muscle so the implants are partially covered,” says Dr. Stevens. “The muscle allows a nice smooth take-off from the chest wall. lf put directly on top of the muscle they can look like a half-grapefruit or rounded balloon the chest.”

The fourth criterion in an excellent breast augmentation is the choice of specific implant. Should it be smooth, textured, low profile, high profile or anatomic? It’s important that each implant is individualized to achieve the size and shape the patient desires. According to Dr. Stevens, that individualization should dictate the decision.

“It’s my feeling that if the surgeon is wedded to only one type of implant then all the breast augmentations will look the same. This is not cookie-cutter surgery. Cookie-cutter breast augmentations are, in my opinion, ‘boob jobs’.”

Finally, although there is a size range from which to choose, the breast implant must be appropriately sized for the individual.

“When a breast augmentation is extremely large compared to the woman’s body, in my mind, it falls into the category of a ‘boob job’ because any one can certainly spot it,” notes Dr. Stevens. “If you take a little woman and you give her size double-D breasts, most people would agree that this is inappropriate. For a larger woman however, that size may be reasonable.Mostlf my patients want to be In the C to D range but certainly some women want to be a large D and some women only desire to be B-cup size.”

“Boob jobs” are often hard, round balls on a woman’s chest. Beautiful breast augmentations have a natural shape and size. Allowing natural movement, the implanted breasts slope gently off the chest and feel soft to the touch.

 

Talking Is Harder Than Writing

I’ve been writing BoobCast for so long, one would think that losing my breasts to necrosis would have gotten somewhat easier to talk about. I would have liked to believe that writing about it makes it easier to deal with at all.

It hasn’t.

Yesterday I hung out with someone I haven’t seen in about a year and a half. After we talked about the initial reason she contacted me again, she asked me what had been going on with me since last we saw each other. So I told her. Not in vivid detail mind you but enough so that I was kind of choking up.

What surprised me even more is how much anger I still have towards the man I feel is responsible for all of this. I’m still legally constrained from mentioning his name or the name of his practice. That doesn’t keep me from hoping that some day someone will break his hands with a sledgehammer so he can’t put some other poor woman through this.

Almost 2 and a half years and I’m still angry beyond belief. I think what made me the most angry has always been his manner. There was The Valium Incident, generally replying “I don’t know” when asked what was going on and insulting my practice as an herbalist by calling it voodoo even though, as part of prep for the surgery I was given herbal supplements to take. Add to that, telling me to stop screaming as he sewed cadaver skin onto my rotting breasts to try to act as some kind of bandage. The screaming happened because he was sewing it on to a spot that hadn’t been numbed. Of course I left out those details. I can write about them but, as I type, I’m choking back tears.

When does this get easier??

It HAS to one of these days or I’m never going to be able to talk about this on stage. I still have hopes of turning BoobCast into a Vagina Monologues style stage show.

Do any of you know how to get speaking gigs?

For new readers, please read my earliest post in the Archives.

 

Fallout – The Implant Difference

If you are one of my regular readers, you know that I had implants with the initial breast augmentation and lift surgery. If not, implants are used to replace the breast volume that has been lost either over time or due to breastfeeding and pregnancy. They can also be used in the case of benign fibroid removal to help fill out the breast blGflA

My surgery was purely cosmetic. My breasts had degraded as far as they could go. According to the RN at one consultation, “they weren’t going to get any worse”. By degraded I mean that the areolaes covered the entire end of my breasts, my nipples pointed at the ground and my breasts had very little volume. They looked like a couple of pizza slices hanging from my chest wall.

It is not physically possible to put breasts back where they were when you were 18. Skin stretches far too much for that. What they CAN do is add volume. That’s where the implants come in. But there are big differences once the implants are in. Remember, these are foreign objects placed in your body. So they are not going to act like your own natural breasts.

Here’s what I’m talking about when I say “Headlight breasts”. They look like they were pasted on her.

Whether they are saline or silicone, they are not going to feel or act like your own natural tissue. For instance, with a natural breast in a 30+ year old woman, when we lay down, we end up with our breasts migrating towards our armpits. This is commonly referred to as fallout.

It’s just what breasts do after a certain age.

With implants, those puppies aren’t going anywhere. You lay on your back and they stay where they were put. They may move a little but not like real tissue.

This is one reason I advocate for tissue-based reconstruction whether it be TRAM flap or Lat Flap reconstruction for women who have lost their breasts.

The other reason is the feel of the breast. I can only speak from the point of a woman who has had saline implants. You can FEEL the implant through the skin. From my perspective it feels like you’re squeezing a warm, overfilled water bottle.When I poked at them, I could HEAR the saline sloshing sometimes.

My husband says, “They were very hard kind of like groping a hard, squishy melon. Well, something not as hard as melon but not as soft as breast tissue.”. He enjoys my reconstructed breasts much more. The reason he likes the tissue reconstruction better is that “they’re natural. They’re all you”.

The down side to tissue reconstruction is that, on a deep feel, you can feel the edges of the flap. You really have to search for it, but it’s still there. For my husband, there IS no down side now that the flap has softened.

 
 
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